longtime no blog

it's been a week since my last confession. whoa so my power surge just flipped off and everything went dead for like 2 secs. anyway, so yesterday was cool. had some bonding time with the sis and mum. took a tour of princeton which was kinda cool. another oxbridge wannabe (:-)) but they didn't use as much acid to make it look old like yale does so it wasn't quite up to snuff. so i also got some driving of the 1989 volvo in which was a blast from the past as always. ok so just got off the phone with emily and tom at our new house in london (!!). Meanwhile I started this post 88 minutes ago i'm not very good at focusing am I? So ya anyway after we went to an off-campus bday party for one of margot's classmates we went to one of the eating clubs which was quite the experience. At first I thought it was quite different from other stuff I've been to but then I kinda realized it wasn't much different than most frat parties probably and not that different than crush on friday nights except for the fireplace and fancy-looking lobby. monthly tube pass=not cheap. thats icky. i do get a 30% discount tho cuz ima student which is nice. free ipod will hopefully get here before i bounce on thursday but if not i'll have mommy ship it to me. !attention rubbishers! the following need to download skype: Lina, Luci, Bruce. So ya do that on the right quick. Note this is not a request or anything silly like that this is a direct order. whoa speaking of which bush pulling ahead in the polls bigtime? sounds like fun. ok so i am really dragging my feet here its almost 5 and i started this at 2.46. so i think i'm going to go and then come back tomorrow with something exciting to say. bob marley shot the sheriff. bob what'd the sheriff ever do to you?

Happy days, Summer 2004

wonderful

i was about to type out some lyrics from the everclear song with the abovementioned name but i realized that would be a bit pas bon. so i was thinking as i sometimes do whats the deal with this happiness thing. while there are about a million ways to dissect this heres how i worked it out in my head:
1. current situation
2. future prospects

so if i have sex with keira knightley everynight that falls under category #1 and if for some deranged reason i'm under the impression i will be in the forseeable future that goes into #2. having a good time in college? 1. got into a good college and excited to go? 2. for the most part anything that can go into one group can go in another. so boom all we have to do to install me as world leader is to deceive everyone that they have tremendous future prospects a la matrix without the matrix if you follow me.

remember that question, if u could choose money, power, or fame (with the implication u cant use one to acquire the other) which one would u choose? so the answer is power. hands down. and hands up! simon didnt say! step to the side.

and now wyclef just said yo what up its wyclef. whoa he made a song called 911??? and i have it? trippy. downloaded hero, apparently its a good movie so i have high hopes. amalia wins the wack award for having non-service on her cell / avoiding me (!! bitch).

ok so back to the happiness theme. for most people, more of our happiness lies in category 2 because well we dont really know what the deal is. we have all these expectations and aspirations like falling in love, getting a job, buying a house, consistently having amazing sex (this is more a male thing perhaps), and so on. but then you think OK well lets turn to our category 1 happinesses. those, for most people on the planet, are category 2 happinesses. Without lecturing, most people don't have proper nutrition, water supply, shelter, and so on. We are New Yorkers (well... sorry Bruce) and that in itself is a life-goal for millions I'm sure. The interesting thing is that none of this really matters because even though we have all of these #1's we're not necessarily happier than those who have them as #2's. And people who have our #2's as their #1's are usually not happy (who wants to be old?) So maybe this theory is a little flawed. We need to assign values. but thats near impossible cuz this is abstract stuff we're talking about. but they manage to do it in microeconomics.. utils? whats that rubbish about. well i dont know but if they do it i can do it too. your total happiness (in hapils) = sum of #2 happinesses + #1 happinesses (this latter # will be negative, for example, if you are most people in the world and don't have the adequate living conditions abovementioned). ok so thats a start. next we can put a maximum on the hapils on each kind of happiness sooo sex for example might have a maximum of 1000 whereas material possessions / acquisition might have 300. here is where it gets dicey. Sex, for example, provides more hapils as a category 1 than as a 2 cuz shit, anyone no matter how legitimately i might think i'm sleeping with keira knightley next week its not quite as nice as actually doing it or having done so. Material possessions, on the other hand, often provide more hapils as a 2 because once you have (that house or jaguar for example) you got what u wanted, and thats the end of it. not that excited about it anymore are you? didn't think so. and then there's the simple fact that for some the material hapil max may be more than sex (lets call them for convenience sake conservatives). so in order to carry out my plan of world domination via making everyone happy i need to efficiently allocate happiness. i think i'm on the right track. by the way you can still call me p-master funk when im hegemon. hakuna matata.

dreamt that rocky was trying to kill me last night in my apartment building. i managed to get away by jumping from the staircase down into the elevator and taking the elevator back up to the 16th floor.

today

i feel all this pressure to be happy. i'm a self-loathing westerner. being in the top 2 or 3% of the world's population i am what you could say a rich mofo. and thus i shouldn't be entitled to happiness. OK so I wrote that at 10:55 and now it's 1:19. how did that happen. i got robbed bigtime. so coming home on the subway= quality experience. these people who i later learned after checking the cia factbook were from or whos heritage was dominica which is its own country in the carribean with a population of 69,278. i only know this because they were draped in the flag which i matched on the factbook site. so ya there was this one dude talking about how the reason why you say someone "falls in love" is because they are falling down-- it is the end of their period of the strength, they fall down and exhibit weakness. so ya, man's gotta point. also-- krugman article extremely excellent: http://www.nytimes.com/2004/09/03/opinion/03krugman.html?ex=1095404378&ei=1&en=2419ad9814b6f181 courtesy of susanna poppick the first.

So let's see what else. Central park was where it was at today with good fun in the sun with luke, james, kris, and amalia (english peoples - amalia). chatted it up with this dude who got back from miami last night after managing to get on a flight (much like amalia from brasil) while kris, amalia, and james were playing football and luke and i were rubbishing alongside (i had only birkenstocks so you can see, i had an excuse). in other news we managed to get 2 shoes and 2 frisbees (both mine) stuck in a tree (originally one frisbee then it got ugly when trying to throw stuff at it to get it down...)

In other news lina is crazy. but we knew that and love her for it :-) wait she doesn't know about this yet i dont think i gotta tell her.

fuck its almost 2, work 2mro. ima write something cool again tomorrow. i had lots of thoughts today i wanted to put down but forgot them.

peoples

so tonight was cool, chilled with polazzo over some quality chicken sandwich at dojo's. after a whole evening of defending the US system at the end he was like ya the american system has so many problems its sad i was like thank you bastard at long last. but so ya that was cool. i wanna visit stuy b4 i go and be a high schooler again. its weird tho im going to know basically no one so i can be all cool in polazzo's class and like i graduated TWO years ago, a REAL alum. luke arrived last nite from san fran and hes his usual rubbish self which is fun. work wasnt bad, chatted it up with this cat from the wall st journal in cali about how we're going to make this event a big fuckin deal in 2005 and so forth. speaking of event i hate the rnc and all the traffic it is causing. ya ya it was the protestors shutup i dont want to hear it. if we had a proper government we wouldnt have protestors ok? quit bitching and go home. so ya word on the street bruce got lost in a wormhole and cannot speak english anymore so thats why hes not emailing calling writing breathing etc. ok well hopefully hes breathing cuz thats necessary to live and so on. so once again i find myself ready to be lame and go to sleep at the ripe hour of 12:30. shit! i have 2 lectures all year at 9am. 9am!!!!!! ill have to wake up at 8AM. 8AM!!!!! fucking fuck. thats inhumane. i think im going to protest. ok so now its time for me fall asleep like i did on the trian today. sleeping's a funny thing.